Christmas Coming !!!

Yahaaa...
3 more essays to go.. Gosh!!! i done one only.. it due before christmas break.. Shooot!

Put up the Christmas Tree sure is fun!!! kkkk.. I have a great feeling for that.. fun and interesting.
Snow came as if they invite us to Winter and Christmas time!!!


Even cat enjoy to be under the tree.. :P








First Present to be placed there.. For: Sheen n Me!!

She is cute rite?? :P Jayden ^^

Adapting Time

Should I sad? Should I happy?
I try to improve my works at school, but it seems like no one help me; nor teacher, nor friends. The situation does not want to cooperate with me. How can I archive my 85% average goal? I need to rely on you, teacher; your knowledge, understanding, and kindest are needed.

Water. It is all what my mom told me to become. Adjust and adapt to their circumstances quickly. When it ends in the bowl, it become a bowl's figure. When it ends in the sea, it becomes salty. It is a good philosophy to rely on.

Water, water, water. I have to depend in my self. Getting used to this new environment. Who said adapting to unknown circumstance is that easy. I don't think so now..

Last Destination

The sun shone through the heaven
Leaving shadow behind, telling me to follow the trace.

Body fill with rain drops,
Mud stick onto my feet,
Oasis appears between my vision and my eyes.
Dry as a desert but humid as a rain forest.

Symbol of sky power flying above thee,
Silence still but whispering to me.
Auster voice demand my action,
as he wanting the greatest perfection.

Visible as far as my eyes see,
The shadow will never have its so called home,
As the Earth keep its rotation toward the Sun
The following night will not be my last destination.

Individually

My own life like this, everyday goes as it goes. I love my family, friends and my partner. I live in an invisible surrounding, which I can't recognize if its just a dream or reality. Religious, value, and pride somehow make a bond to this visible appearance. What is life really mean? What is love means? What is my own name mean? Why is this body feels hurt every time it gets cut? Why we need to sleep? Why there is sex? In the Bible it says, God loves us, but why He gives us definition of "miserable" life, war, fight, and gender? Why don't just gives us utopia like what He desired and let all that He loves get besides Him? Or is it just our (as human) definition is opposite from what God's means?

Sometimes I think to my self; what is exactly real life outside our body is? Ghost? Spirit? Is knowledge that teacher and this world gives really that important? What is right and what is not? Is human the great ruler for this unbalance life? Or is human the one who responsible for the disaster to its' surrounding? What is the real meaning of Good and Bad? It's coming from different perspective. What is our senses? see, smell, listen?? it is exist for our believes.

Think about it once, about how big this universe is. Our soul not only stuck with one world. There are some other being out there, infinity distance. This body I'm in, contains of billion or trillion of other living being.

Zoo [Part 2] FUN PICS!!

Hahahaha this is great!!! kkkk I took this when I was at ZOO!!! kkk.. funny!! they have Baby Elephant and giraffe too...

This week..[part 1] Museum..

HOWDY!!!!!!

lots of things going on, but instead it makes me don't have any time to tell my own story.

First of all, I went to zoo and Calgary Museum. The zoo looks like a jungle. I went there with all the international students (who wants to participate in this event of course). Got lots of friends since then. ^^ Jun Ma, Helen, Anna, etc etc.. Lots of pictures too kkk..

The museum, It was interesting. Compare to Indonesia one, It's well manage and it's cleaner.. This is what museum suppose to be. That's why it's more interesting to go to museum here than Indonesia.. kkkkk.... for sure.. Try it next time Calgary Zoo and Museum.. AWESOME PLACE TO GO!

in the camp.. with bear fur.. kkk (me, Jun)

Other than just playing around like that, Lots of homeworks and tests also waiting for me. Math and English test for today. Math is fine, but English I bet it's horrible terrible disaster, my worse nightmare.. Homeworks also.. 시빨... that's all i can say.. kkk.. but I hand it all anyway.. ^^

So.. nothing is wrong with my new homestay.. Everthing is awesome.. o yeah.. Sheen broke the blind yesterday, and she buy the new one today!!! I hope she is not mad, but if I am her, I WILL BE PISSED!! kkk.. but not for 2 days. hehe..

So.. this week, I just realize DBSK has new album, so I get more fav songs to add into my ipod. kkk... I'll show you one of my favorite.. the dance is soo awesome too.. Check it out ^^

HEY! DBSK... MIROTIC also good... ^^

ThanksGiving Day! Turkey waiting for me this evening.. ^^
Turkey Turkey Turkey!!!! Thank you for giving us great foods on the table. Thanks for everybody who serve it. Thanks for the person who grow the foods, and for everybody. Thanks for the animals too, especially turkey... but sorry i have to eat you :'(

Happy ThanksGiving Day!!!

Excitement in Sandy's Home ^^

Yay! It's time for Thanksgiving day! tomorrow anyway.. ^^

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone who celebrate it.. this is the first time I celebrate it. ^^
Turkey terribly decreasing in all over the world, feel sorry about it TT.TT


Btw, today!!! making some ____beads beads things... whatever.. it is awesome and it's fun! good for you all who feel bored! ^^ i love everything that have "crafting" word in it. ^^
So far, my homestay really awesome and interesting. Yesterday, Sandy's parents came here and will stay for i guess all weekend. They come from BC. We will celebrating thanksgiving tomorrow with all of them ^^ can't wait! ^^

So this is the beads2 thing..
Peace and elephant are my fav ones.. ^^ I wanna send the Peace sign to U.S! with a letter says STOP THE WAR ALREADY!!

Cutey Cute

Jaden!!!!! My first picture with her.. ^^ actually it was taken yesterday not today.. but.. bad day yesterday

HOMEWORK HOMEWORK AND another HOMEWORK.... kkk no prob.. i done it hehehehe

She is soo cute.. hehehe.. isn't she?

Jaden!! Awesome ^^

New 2nd Homestay

YES!!!

Here I am, just get my internet done in my new homestay.. ^^
Great homestay, so far.. I can't judge it now, since this is still my first time here. Actually this is not the first night here ^^ I stay here 2 nights already ^^ 3 days 2 nights.. and this night, it will be my 3rd nights.

So far so good.. Sandy is my new homestay mom. I stay here with Sandy, her husband Rob, and two of her kids: Jordan and Jayden (if I spell it right) ^^ I have one room here, so technically I share room with my roomate, Sheen!! ^^ She follow me around.. :P jkjk.. We move together hehe.. I like her ^^.. She is my best friend here ^^..

I actually compare my old homestay with my new homestay. Oooo before I forget, the last day I stayed at Murphy's house, Toni! actually kicked us. After I came back from school, our stuff already on the brisk way. Then after that, she actually said to us that we better moved our luggages and put it outside "her" house (we can say besides the road). She told us that Nancy ( the person who will picked us up that day) will come soon, but actually she will come at 5 o'clock, which is around 1 and half hours later. JERK! I wanna make her piss off, but I couldn't in the end.. I should T.T I regret it now.. then, we have to wait till Nancy come OUTSIDE the house. Wasn't that great???

anyway.. This is the first day of me and Sheen here ^^ awesome pic :P and stupid.. couldn't sleep till 1 am in the morning cos of homework and unpacking, also.. rearrange the interior inside this room ^^

My entertainment

I pass day by day.. each second means a lot to me. I'm getting older and older each second.. so it is precious.. hehe

I just acknowledge my busy day. Even I don't have time to improve my Korea language anymore ^^ BYKI sure is good for learn language.. and it is for free.. of course I learn it from somewhere else too other that program. ^^

I love Korea and I like their language, culture, and movie/drama. ^^ but I don't like the way they act about Hyung and Noona, drinks. It is too free there ^^ but anyway.. I still love Korea. Although the first time I have bad thinking about them. Since I only see bad one here. They punch other or mistreat people younger than him/her. Still Love Korea ^^ hoho

anyway.. this is the Korea vid song that I like now ^^ hope u guys enjoy it ^^

CRAZY HOMESTAY MOM!

Shi*!!!!!!!!!! She really is an As*Hol*!!!! WTF!!!!!

She totally definitely makes me mad!!!!!!!!! I'm almost reach my limitation here.. Gosh!!!!

I arrived to this sucks homestay and actually want some peace going on, as a start for my weekend. But she completely destroy it.. GOSH Mother Fuck**!!!! Fine if you don't like us without any reason, I DON'T CARE! but! at least respect others for a while before we move. I don't even know what did I do that make you piss off, but it's still your responsibility to take care of us, since HELLO!!! WE STILL IN YOUR HOUSE NOW!!! DON'T YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MANNERS?????? I don't think so..


THIS HANGER IS MINE!!!!!!!! NOT YOURS!!!!!!.. please know ur LIMIT!!!! YOU R AN ADULT ALREADY.. ACT THE WAY YOUR AGE SAYS!! YOU JERK!!!!

There is no way I will smile and say I stayed here before.. THIS IS REALLY THE WORSE PLACE I'VE EVER BEEN!!! AND I'M GLAD I'M MOVING!!!!!

Move Homestay??

<<<Cambridge Glenn) see Sheen there??

Wah2.. I just got new information (actually yesterday) that I have to move homestay, along with Sheen, my homestay mate. Is it wonderful or it isn't??

what if my next homestay worse?? I hope not... I hope they give me 24 hours internet and one room for my self, and again: nice foods.. :P I really hope for that one to happen hehe...

Anyway, I'll move this weekend, or perhaps next Wednesday, depends. As soon as possible is better.. she makes me not feel good staying here. She knows we have to move sooner or later, but it doesn't mean she has to be mean to us. She acts like we does not exist. You guys know, that kind of feeling. It feels like I'm invisible, although I'm not.

So, for me to not forget what kind of treatment I got from here and so I can remember couple of years later, the feeling of my first homestay in Canada, I put some pictures of their places. Their pictures?? I don't even have time to take pictures with the kids yet. Still I've just been here for 1 month, exactly one month. That's it for now, I'll write again soon, after I arrive in my new homestay, and hope they have internet. ^^

from what I see here, My room not even messy.. How come she acts like we are so annoying?? I'm not even bugging her or their kids.. =_= sometimes makes me piss off, but whatever, it'll be just a memory. Next time I will say "I stayed there for 1 month before." with happy smile.

Tired Crazy

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What should I say?? These days I feel totally tired. Even though we have 3 days weekends, still It is not holiday!!!! With 2 tests, 3homeworks, and what so ever..

Anyway.. For that days, My study table totally in a mess. Work doesn't seem fun anymore.. It never fun for me, except Math. ^^

So... this is what currently happen in my daily grade 12-er life. Wakes up early in the morning, walk to school, listening to the teacher, go back home, get into my room, open my laptop, then start to do homework again.

So basically if I count it, 6 hours at school add with 3 hours study or perhaps around 4 hours doing homework and study for tests or quizzes. basically 9 hours study.
Sleep for barely 8 hours. With 4 hours (in the morning, getting ready for school, take shower, eat breakfast, lunch, supper). I only have 2 hours left for playing.. GOSH!!!! grade 12er sure is strict!


my messy table.. kinda

Stress and Fun

Math test today?? Yup definitely... Gosh.. I did it.. and I stressed of it..
My brain was overloaded with numbers!!!! T.T
whatever it's past already.. Now I just need to relax and enjoy my free math time.. but I still have Social the day after tomorrow.. Gosh!! Grade 12 sure is full of works, tests, and quizzes...

Anyway.. Other than stress only, I have fun.. but somehow that fun wasn't really enjoyable. At least it's better than Math "fun".

My homestay mate wanted to walked from the different way to go back home today. She always moves so fast after school to go back home. It is not really convenience for me, since this is the first time I stay at homestay not dormitory. I'm just not use to it. I know I move so slow because I have to remember what homeworks and other works the teacher gives me. I also have to make sure I don't left anything behind. Differ from when I was still at the dormitory, I could go back to school anytime I wanted if I left something (since it's only take 5 seconds to get there)

It is kind of annoying when she started to tell me "I'm the same with Anna, moves so slow and all." (Anna: my friend from China, she was from the Drumheller Dorm too. She walks so slow, but it's fine for me.) I'm not a slow walker. I only slow when I was at locker to pack my stuff.
At least she has to realize and tolerate it for a couple of weeks before I can actually get used to "act fast".
I mean.. Hello!! I'm new here. It's only been 2 weeks at school, and she wants me to get used to it already?? Kinda piss me off. Don't keep saying you are so slow. Please.. even I try to tolerate what u said, but I have my limitation too. I can blow up anytime. Maybe her personality like that, but it is not a good thing to do, even though I know her since more than 1 year already.

PS for Her: Remind me first about that. Of course I will try to change it. I am trying. It is stressful after Math test and I get blame because we can't catch up with your friends who walk first. Better you are not waiting and go on first. I don't mind.
and again. I dont really like staying at home after school too much, so I was thinking to stay at school a couple minutes or so before we actually go back home. We only play computer the time we arrive home anyway. It's not the "new things" I wanna do when I get to homestay.

Piss Off. Mind Ur Own Life!!!!

Yay! I'm piss off today!! Totally the worse day in my life!! not worse.. but for this week.. yeah!! homeworks, test, presentation and in addition, Someone makes me really piss off.

This is the first time I said all the bad words that I know within 5 minutes.. from English, Indonesia, Korea Chinese to whatever languages I know.. Shoot!! Really piss me off.

Remember this!!!!!
Please mind you own business<< this is for me to realize.. die?? Sure I don't Care if that's what you want. Maybe it is true about every women in the world judge something with their heart, that's why they always need protection and make everything worse.. I'll never ever again make a decision with my heart.. love? sure, if they truly understand what the meaning of love is.. Dont act like this is novel, manga, or other imagination love.. This life is CRUEL.. this is ur OWN LIFE, and no one will even bother if you exist or not if they don't know or like you. This world is individual. You have something that will make my life easier?? I'll get close to you. If not, don't ever dare to stand near me.

I will change my opinion about life, since today! Individual, opportunist, pragmatist, self-serving, and no mercy.

You come to this world alone and you'll die alone.

New "Home Sweet Home"

Yup!! Me, trying to be the new me..

Although It is late to introduce this, I want to let you all know anyway. :P

Here I am, not at Drumheller. Now I am at Strathmore. Having new environment around me, new school (Strathmore High School) and definitely new places to live (homestay not dormitory anymore). I am Grade 12 now and I don't want to get into University as soon as possible (I want to enjoy my high school life more!!!).

I stay at Mr.Murphy's house (manager of Golden Hills Division). With Sheen as my homestay mate! (Nice to be with you again Sheen!!!) Toni as my homestay mom and Murphy's kids :Dylan, Liam, Cormic, Bennet and Keira.

Nice to meet you all!!!!!

I've been here since 24th August and I like it here! Even though the school not allow me to meet new international friends as much as I used to at Drumheller ( because of i'm not staying at the dorm here), I'm glad for it.. :P I hope to get Canadian friends to improve my English. ^^

Anyway.. kids here are sooo annoying.. they scream, cry, and fight a lot. Piss me off sometimes, but I have to endure my self for not scream around to shut them down. and just now.. Liam came into my room without knocking.. S***!!! Damn!!!!

Get me out from this kids.. T.T please...

My 3rd Blog

I'm sure this is my 3rd, because I delete the 2nd one.. -_-

I'm hoping I can provide you all with the story of my life although I realize story of my life isn't that interesting.

And I'm terribly sorry if my english doesn't seem great for u all ^^

I'll try to improve it.. ^^

This Blogger is sooo hard to use.. I guess I need more time to really know how to use it ^^ :P:P

Thanks!!!!

Appereance,NOT! Personality, YUP!

A movie has their own structure and meaning in it. I watched the movie "MEAN GIRL" a couple days ago.. and I realize.. It's not a proper way to talk about someone behind their backs. Although sometimes no one can hold it to talk about others, but It is necessary to stop it. They are doing what they desire. I mean... this is free modern world already.. what they want to do, just let it go. Sometimes it is better for us to just ignore what others did.

Acting all great, right and whatsoever never let us to become better than they are, but even worse. Appearance is important, but what inside it will be the matter. It is not like we will die or something from not having great body or physical structure. but we will die because our performance are terrible or even worse. It is a bless to get perfect appearance and personality. Enjoy it, but do not over joy it.

What the hell I'm talking about.. ~~~