Hope I'm not losing both

I used to be alone. Do what I want to do and be satisfied by myself.
Figure. My Best Friend become my Boy Friend. Never feel lonely, but instead insecurity appear.
What if he leave me behind? What if this feeling disappear?

I tried not to get involve deeply into this feeling, instead, they pulling me deeper and deeper. Fear, is not a joke. Jealousy is not something to be proud of. Love is like a rose: pretty, fragile, yet in the other hand, it's torn will hurt you.

I shouldn't say this. Love.. is a great thing to have in your life, but for real, it can be painful too.

Nonsense

UofAlberta... I mention it a couple of time already, yet i don't know why I'm still mentioning it now. Perhaps I'm just worry for not passing my English 30-1. I am eager to become a university student very soon, and it is a rare opportunity to be able to attend overseas university..

I guess I have to study hard from now on.. Then why I'm still questioning myself??
Entertainment, Of course I need some entertainment.. Maybe I have to limit it to 2 hours a day? or one hour a day?? ONE HOUR!

I have to stop this.. I'm talking nonsense.. Time to do my Personal Essay... Night by Elie Wiesel.. ^^

I LOST MY CAMERA!!!!!!

Hoooo My Gosshhhh!!!

My camera... It's gone!!!!! Although I bet it must be somewhere inside my room, but.. I search it for 1 hour!!!!

My camera is everything for me.. It'ss been with me since 2004.. When I went to US, she is there to take beautiful moment for me.. When I am bored, she is there to accompany me.. now it's gone, I'll not replace you..

Where are you.. come out and be beside me once more.. Don't tell me I lost you.. cos I don't think such thing happen..
MY CAMERA!

Veggie House

http://www.itsportsnet.com/league.php?scriptName=LEAGUEINFO&leagueID=16422&leagueInfoID=62867

my friend make this for his own entertainment... Hope someone see it and open it.. it's a VEGGIE HOUSE GUYS!!!!

BE MORE HEALTHY AND SUPPORT YOUR BODY TO RE CONCILIATE WITH YOUR FUTURE!!!! ^^ drink tea.. and do not forget that you cannot replace your body with the same one you was born with....

Acknowledgement

Before Judging Others For Their Misbehaviour Towards You, Ask Yourselve First Whether You Deserve It Or Not; Have You Ever Done The Same Thing To Other Person? And How Do They React To It? (Probably The Same)


So that's what I think about Karma is. You pick what you have planted.
The word Sorry will release you from the feeling of Guilt, but It won't let go the Karma.

9윌 12일 (September 12)

Facing the split for anyone
Cannot be all fine and dignified
I was like that,
having my heart ripped off
Clenching my teeth, I answered you

Let's split
I'll do what you tell me to do
I spitted out the words of split coolly
Go and find someone who is better than me
On the surface I told you Just like that

I'm crying while waiting for you
All the days we were together
On the bed soaked with the memories,
you will open the door surely come and find me someday
Because you are my everything in my life

Do you remember the September 12th?
You told me something that can never be forgotten
You said trust each other let's start together
I could never forget that time~

I'm crying while waiting for you
And your shining bright smile
Though I have not expressed anything to you yet
Truly for me,
in my heart there was only you
Only one in the world
My only heart

But I am not asking you to come back
Truly, you have to be happy
The tears you dropped because of me
Make my heart aching more and more
BE HAPPY

Happiness vs Sadness

I have a grudge against my brother's girlfriend. I don't have any idea since when I hate her. I don't want this to happen, even so it just happen like this. There are some reasons behind it and after I think further about it, it's not even worth blame for.

I personally want you to be very happy, for what you've been through. All the weight that we've put upon you is definitely bother you and give some pressures in your life. She can release your burden and from what you tell me every time, she makes you happy.

Since the beginning of my life, when the first time I know that we are considered as close between siblings, I'm afraid to lost you. I keep thinking, what if after you be with her, you will not have time to spend with me? What if you distance yourself from me? I am too afraid to lose you. You are my best friend, brother, and also part of my life. You really are a caring person. Every time I have a burden, I will go to you and release my sadness (even though it is make you mad instead). You make me laugh every single time you open your mouth. But then it changes after you met her. You don't have time to spend with me, busy with her phone call, and even weekends, you will spend your time with her.

The reason of this is mainly because of my stubbornness and my pride. I cannot give you happiness even though we've known each other for more than 18 years of my life. And her, you just known her for couple of years and she can show you the beauty of this world.
Your girlfriend indeed is a good girl. I cannot say it properly now, but I hope I can say be happy for you with smile on my face. I'm sorry for everything. Can we be friends??

It is better to release one of my happiness, for two people to be happy. rite? I can find one of my happiness by my own.
Within sorrow, there are some lights behind it, always.